All good things must come to an end.

So, I'm a senior. This summer I think I'll be living in College Station, interning for when I graduate in December. It's kinda crazy. I still feel so young. Well, I guess I am. Everyone here basically gets married by now, so it's not so scary for them. But, going out into the world, alone, is pretty intimidating. I know I have God & family, so I'm not technically alone...but I'll be the only physical being living in an apartment with me, going to work with me, etc.

But, it's an exciting scary. I'm pumped for the opportunities ahead of me. I don't think I've had the college experience of most; however, it's all led me to where I am today. Which is a good place, I think. There's just so much world out there to be discovered. So many people to reach. I don't know if I'll necessarily be working in ministry, but I can minister to those I pass by. They're people everywhere, in every aspect of life, who need to see Him. I just hope I can prove faithful.

I went to a good concert tonight. One with a cause- The Moses Project. It's just so hard to leave things dedicated to those who need so much thinking about anything material, anything fluff. Who am I to complain about the ridiculous things I complain about when people are literally starving to death or living with horrendous physical ailments?

Perspective is nice.

I saw two homeless people the other day. I was taking a friend to the clinic, so I couldn't stop. But, I literally cannot see homeless people without crying or becoming close to it. It's just heartbreaking to me. So I prayed for God to send them someone to help them. Later that day, I went to wal-mart. They were sitting right out front. People passed them left & right. I stopped & asked if they had eaten dinner. Their response KILLED me. They said they had some dog food. Dog food. I couldn't believe it. Here we are living in America, a wealthy nation, (even during a recession) and we are letting people eat dog food? Seriously? It was just devastating.

I don't know. I know not everyone can afford to help. But I think too many who can, don't.

/end ramblings.

Ike- what a jerk.

So, I've not been able to get the people affected by Ike off my mind for a while. I'm at school at ETBU, so I'm not right there at home, but we had trees and power lines fall all over the place here..and no power for a few days. It was really uncomfortable and at night I was pretty scared to be alone with no lights, listening to the howling of the wind. I can't imagine having to deal with that for more than a few days. Some of these people have that for a month or more to come.

I had a dream about it last night. I was trying to go around to friends and get them to help me find clothes to give to these people. But nobody would help me; nobody cared. I don't want to be one of those people. I don't so much think that normal people don't want to help, but I think until you experience something like this, even a small dose of it, you don't realize how devastating something like a hurricane can be. I worked at a grocery store when Rita hit a few years ago, and I was very frustrated because my town was a huge evacuation center and therefore tons of people were in the store all the time and we couldn't keep anything on the shelves. The people weren't very nice most of the time, and it bothered me because I didn't understand what they were going through.

Now I do...in a small degree. Just dealing with this weekend when I had no power, no food..no ability to leave to go somewhere with these things..I came to understand the frustration. I finally was able to leave and found a Target with a little food (not much because their power had been out as well so they had nothing that needed cooking...which I've found out is the only good stuff in a grocery store) and I was on edge. It took a long drive (and no gas stations had gas or were open), so I didn't know if I'd make it anywhere. And I was hungry- so hungry. And, I had a tooth infection but the pharmacy was closed too and therefore I couldn't get my prescription. It was a pretty miserable weekend.

But it's Tuesday, and that's all in the past for me. My power's on. My house is fine. I have my pictures and my music and my clothes..all safe and dry. But not everyone was so lucky.

So, what can I do? How can I help them? I can't stop thinking about them.

Whoa-oh-oh-ohhh...do de do.

Jason Mraz is officially awesome.

Yeah, I feel like I could dedicate a whole post just to that one fact.
:D


...kay, off to another shift at good ol' applebees!
(by 'good old applebees' i of course mean mediocre food applebees, but it pays the school bills..:] )

School is back, holllaaaaa.

Wow. I never thought I'd love school being back so much. I have such incredible friends though for the first time in my life. I have been dating this guy Seth, and he's so romantic and sweet. Most guys leave me feeling badly about myself after hanging out with them, but he leaves me feeling beautiful and admired.

Anyways, that aside, I'm excited about this new year. I have lots of goals I really am determined to meet. I'm really happy with school, friends, and Seth, but I want to be balanced and get my joy from God foremost. This time I really wanna do it right. I was determined to focus on God when the semester started, and just because everything is fitting into place doesn't mean I can let God fall out of the equation.

I want to amp up my joy with God. I want to focus on the right things and stay motivated. This is gonna be a great year!

I love it!!

So, I've totally settled in and made a million friends. It's great. I'm basically on every intramural team. Basketball..soccer..ultimate frisbee, etc.

It's great. I've probably never been happier than I am now. Last night I stayed up til 4am watching scary movies in the quad on the grass with some people..one of which I totally have a crush on.

Anyway. Things are going super well. Hurray.

So.

Tomorrow's my birthday.

But nobody knows.

Ah, this is hard.

Wooooow, God.

Besides the fact that it's incredibly stupid to have a "Christian" youtube, this video is amazing to me. I've watched it so many times. I'm that girl so often..but I never realize how Jesus is trying to pull me back to Him. And I don't see how content I am when I'm abiding in Him, and how miserable I am when I decide to do my own thing.

I LOVE the fact that Jesus takes control and fights for her. I'm one of those girls who dreams of being rescued someday by "prince charming." Yeah, right..well. Maybe it's lame, but it's my hopeless romantic side. But, I love the idea of being rescued by Christ.

I just really love this video. It's changed my heart so much.