I feel like I don't matter.
Yeah.
I do.
And I've been sick 4 out of 5 days lately. Apparently, I have a lot of panic attacks. I broke my finger at work. And apparently, stress can even make your foot feel like it's broken. UM.
But I only have three days of school left. Three ridiculously worrisome days. Finals. Ugh.
What's sad is that when school ends I'll not see those few people who still actually talk to me. Why does Brianna not call me back anymore? Why does Jack always seem too busy to talk to me? Why does ____ never seem to care that we dont hang out anymore?
I had an okay day today because I just decided I would. I didn't feel well, but what's more important to me is mental health. I need to be happy again. I'm like so sick of Christmasy spirited people. I'm usually one of them. But I'm like shuuttt upppppp. Lame Jessica. Let them be happy.
Blahblah. I'm complaining. But, Jeremy Camp's song says "this broken road prepares Your will for me." Hey now. Good lyrics, pal.
posted by llessica @ 9:48 PM
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i read your blog this morning and wasn't about to comment. (am being honest :) )
i wanted another person to comment first. AM not feeling sorry for you or anything like that. just it moves inside of me to help. Like when a homeless person need money. I sometimes give them. or buy them food and if i have on me a chick tract. www.chick.com ;)
(Honestly) Some ask for money and you see they can work. Man, get a job and work. some are in wheelchairs and they are lots of help for people with disability. Trust me, I know.
From one of the lyrics from Inhabited, i heard it from Brock's "Hidden Agenda" dvd
"I know the good in me is only your reflection" and i was like whoa! That's like whoa
SERIOUSLY, I DON'T BLAME YOU.
AGAIN I HAVE MAD RESPECT FOR YOU EXPRESSING YOURSELF SO HONESTLY.
to be continued...
(lirary computer....ooooooookkkkkk)
I had my share of things going not so well and not as i planned and hoped for.
I have been "Honest" too. At churhc, people would tell me, "How are you?" and i would say, "alright"
You hear others respond, "Victoriuos" in spanish, " En Victoria"
or some bold and positive expression.
I think and pretty sure if I keep saying what I "Honestly" feel, people will eventually think, " Oh , Pedro's always negative. Everytime we see Pedro or speak to him, We have an idea of what he will say.
Some people think that keeping it real will get you in trouble, but I'm going to tell it like it is.
(This frase was taken from THe book, "Dont Make a Black Woman Take Off Her Earrings" By Tyler Perry)
THEN THERE'S THE F WORD. NOT THAT ONE.... GIRL YOU BUGGIN.
fAITH, :) JOB WAS GOING THROUGH SOME PAINFUL STUF. kIDS DEAD.....THAT ALONE MUST HAVE BEEN HEART BREAKING.
I remember having a pet cat.
to be continued... again
lirary computer, not cool, but it's ayyyy
I remember having lots of pets and one day my pet cat, Puffy, her coat was puffy..
and before she passed away, she slept on my bed b/w my legs. She had never done that before.
The next day i found her in some leaves. She has been there for some time because there was a strong stench.
I cried and cried. I loved her and always will. I know its only a pet, BUT I DON'T GIVE A HOOT. SHE WAS MY FRIEND, MY PET, AND I TOOK CARE OF HER... but i have my assurance that one day I will see her again, along with all my pets
in heaven
YOur like Bigfoot. It's hard to find "HOnest" people these days.
We still around, but you have to go find us.
Sometimes when things go too well. We tend to forget the things of God. THe Key word here is "SOmetimes"
Think about this. I have done it plenty of times.
When everything goes well for you, HOw's your relationship with God
Honestly?
Do you think about others needs when things are going awesome??
For me, sometimes.
Do you have time for God ,do you read his word?
mannnnnn...........
time was almost up. Had to log off and enter again. I'm not suppose to use this computer not more than once. 15 min. time limit. You going to get in trouble. ANd my parents always told me to be cafeful with girls who will get me into trouble. ;-)
We "sometimes" can get caught up with things going good and un-intentionally, it may slipped our mind that we were supposed to come through for God or His ministry.
Guilty.
i hoped and pray that this was helpful for you to look at things in different views. and NEVER FORGET THAT WHEN THINGS GET BETTER AGAIN, WE NOT FORGET WHERE GOD TOOK US OUT FROM. AND WE CAN HELP OTHERS GOING THROUGH THE SAME SITUATION.
AND I COMPLETELY UNDERSTAND THAT GOD WORKS WITH EVERYBODY DIFFERENT.
pedro
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:)
new blog.....again
this is my Newest blog
man, these blogs are crazy.. i guess i'am. just dont know how to work it ;)
hi jess
uh.....my bad, both blogs are the same. I just found out how to sign up at the correct site
Blogger beta or google accounts
:)
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